THE BEGINNING OF A WHOLE NEW LIFE
This is the beginning of my story which started back in november 2020 and it will help in better understanding the various aspects of mental health, my story is the story of millions if not billions and this story needs to be heard by the society at large!
MENTAL HEALTH AS A STORY OF MY LIFE
Arpit Baliyan
4/13/20252 min read
It is said that everything happens for a reason but when it happened I was not able to locate the reason that why it is happening with me but when it started happening I felt something inside me has changed but I wasn't able to pinpoint the change that triggered this never ending cycle of symptoms which started to surface in my body and mind. In November 2020 when I was in my class 12th(intermediate), I noticed some changes in my thought patterns, my sleeping cycle, my appetite and my body and as soon as I noticed it they started to become intense and increased in frequency and the more I think about them the more helpless I feel because I was not able to understand what is exactly wrong inside me and why? and how I can get rid of it. Let me break my silence on my symptoms now: the symptoms were very weird, some were linked with the body and some with the mind. The bodily symptoms were: one, My body started to get heated up sometimes in the feet, other time in the thigs or in the back side of body or the face or sometimes the whole body, Firstly I interpreted it incorrectly as fever but it wasn't. Two, when someone out of the blue comes in front of you, let say you are crossing a road and suddenly a truck from now where comes in front of you then at that moment the wave of fear you feel like a wave travelling throughout your body and the best part is you can feel it, imagine if starts to feel it all the time, it is like you are crossing that road forever or you are captured in that moment for forever. These were the physical symptoms which are easily explainable to others but still the person who is feeling them is the only one who really knows them.
The mental symptoms are even more weird and it can be described as a kind of disturbance in mind in the form of repeated sounds in the mind like for example you listens to a song and it sometimes happens that we just listened to a song it completely occupies our mind for hours on end but imagine if the hours become days and weeks and you are not able to think properly because of this disturbance in mind. You will feel helpless and the more you feel helpless the more it comes and so on.
This description for someone who has not felt it is like the description of maniac person who is mentally ill and is of no use to society and can't do anything because he is always trapped in his mind. But the reality is far different from it because here I am, I am writing this content by my own, trying to raise awareness about mental health that is exists for real and having some weird symptoms does not make us less of a human!
This is the introductory part of my story and it resonates with millions of brilliant people worldwide who are not able to realise their potenital because of the self doubt stirred by their mental health conditions and the stigma around it.
Thank you everyone!
Arpit Baliyan
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